but right now, i just can’t help it. maybe it’s because we’re not actually together, which means that there’s no sort of commitment at all. not even fake commitment. and maybe the fact that she’s his ACTUAL girlfriend. or was. idk. on a break. whatever that means…..

but really, the reason that i think it really bothers me, not only because i’ve liked him for a while and i know he loves her, but really because it was only this morning that he came over and woke me up to have sex and cuddle. and then he went out with her tonight. really dude? same day? ugh. and i just have this sinking suspicious(hello, jealously, i don’t see you often but you suck) that they’re still together….which means they’re probably also having sex. which is just not cool with me right now.

ugh. WHY DO I ALWAYS GET MYSELF INTO THESE SITUATIONS?!