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i really just want to get married and have babies
and finish school and all that, but i really do want to find a good guy that wants to marry me (and that i want to marry, of course) and start a family. it’s all i’ve ever wanted.
so, why is it, that so many people i know just want to fuck around and date yet they’re the ones that always find guys and it’s so hard for me to find someone who wants to even DATE me let alone marry me.
i don’t know what makes me such a shitty person.
could everyone do me a favor and just answer one question?
out of curiosity, if your significant other told you to stop talking to one of your friends would you listen? or would you fight for your friendship?
so, somehow valentine’s day came up in conversation
and he said he was going to surprise me on monday or wednesday and bring me flowers, since he works on tuesday.
i told him not to because that would be too cute.
he said it wouldn’t be a surprise anymore, so he won’t. but maybe he will, and whether or not he will will now be the surprise.
ugh. this is how he keeps me in it.
normally, i’m not a jealous person at all
but right now, i just can’t help it. maybe it’s because we’re not actually together, which means that there’s no sort of commitment at all. not even fake commitment. and maybe the fact that she’s his ACTUAL girlfriend. or was. idk. on a break. whatever that means…..
but really, the reason that i think it really bothers me, not only because i’ve liked him for a while and i know he loves her, but really because it was only this morning that he came over and woke me up to have sex and cuddle. and then he went out with her tonight. really dude? same day? ugh. and i just have this sinking suspicious(hello, jealously, i don’t see you often but you suck) that they’re still together….which means they’re probably also having sex. which is just not cool with me right now.
ugh. WHY DO I ALWAYS GET MYSELF INTO THESE SITUATIONS?!
“on a break” is not the same thing as “breaking up.”
i’m not gonna be that girl.
i’m getting better at this(:
it was 2:30 in the morning, i was drunk, and i really wanted to text him. but i didn’t!
maybe i do have some ounce of self control…
friends
i feel like i don’t know what that word means anymore
when will i finally find a good guy?
i’m really sick of all of these assholes.
i don’t know why i just can’t help myself. i feel like i might actually be getting to a good place, finally, but i always end up trying to fuck it up. he’s super sweet to me, which is generally not a trait that guys i date have, unfortunately. he was actually excited to meet my parents and got along with them super well. we have mutual friends, i’m really good friends with his sister and he actually seems to like me and yet, i am either pushing him away or being bitchy and i have no idea why.
i don’t know why i can’t just allow myself to try to be happy.
i like the new stage
where things are new and fresh and fun and you’re finding out about each other. but i already feel like my emotions are getting tangled. it’s weird. maybe i’m just feeling depressed because i’ve barely slept in days, idk. it’s that feeling where you want to be with someone so much, but at the same time you don’t for fear of getting sick of them. it’s a weird feeling.
idk i’m just blahhhh
